for the first time in my life, i visited the old folks home at setapak with coll frens. i was actually being dragged to go, and i was very reluctant as i still got loads of assignments. but now, i'm glad i went and met many uncle aunties. they were more outgoing and more active than i expected, although they are very old, and some part here pain and some part there swollen. we were assigned to one old person for each of us, and play some games. i supposed the games we prepared is kinda lame, the uncle next to me refuse to play with me..T.T whenever i talked to him he just smile and nod.. dunno is malu or lazy to talk with me..XD.. then another uncle came to sit next to me and we chat.. i wonder whether old man all behave the same manner. coz his attire and gestures are like my dad's. XD. and he play 口琴 and sing on the rooftop(they live in a low cost flat) everyday until the people live in opposite block can hear him. and he's very good in dancing, as in flinging ur legs and hands.. haha.. so he drag me out to dance and i turn out to be the one who stood there dunno how to move.. XD.. the old people are quite sporting, and they are super CUTE.. so i guess i have no worries now.. coz u grow older and u get cuter.. i will be super duper cute in my 80s.. XD.. too bad i din get to take photograph with them. schedule was too rush and the uncle disappeared suddenly :P

but still, it is not a perfect place for them. they have no families, no colors. they just waiting for people to visit them and care for them. there's one auntie who is sick and cant join us. we went to her room to look up for her.. and i saw a picture of her in the room, a beautiful young lady, fashionable, and cheerful. but i saw dignity in her eyes when i asked about it. she must had had a interesting life when she was young. but now she is old and sick and stucked in the old folks home with more sick old people. it is just my guess la.. but again i see my mom in her.. XD... old people memang old people.. all d same.. :p when we were leaving the aunties kept saying 下次再見 la, 有空常來la, which i feel helpless with that.再見means 永遠不見。even if i get to visit them next time, i not sure whether they will be there again. all i can do is only keep their faces in my mind forever.

anyway, i hope that old folks homes never exist, which means all old people have a family to live with. and no matter how, i will nvr let my mom in there. not even a day.

alright, i finally found a reason to make myself focus on all design work.

"For me everything which is outside the human body is architecture. And if you are not able to design small things like a salt shaker well, you will never manage to create designs on a large scale."

Nosigner,Japan

Nosigner exhibition

Baubiologue, 2004, selescted as one of the twelve best diploma projects in Japan
Arborism

Rebirth

5, 4, 3, 2 to 1

i always favor number 5. it is a number of happiness, naive and dreamy. how do i express the uneasiness i feel when 5 reduced to 1? 5 were crowded, noisy, and packed. but everyday is a new day.the 5 work together and eat together and play together. there were sunday outings to the preserved forest. there were truck loads of grocery shoppings every fortnight. there were movies watched cluttered in a small room. there were a round table and all 5 packed together and all fight for food. if u r slow u'll dun get any food. there were cinemas and amazingly stunts movie of James Bond. there were house full of sunflowers that bloom so brightly that the house is the most beautiful among the neighbourhood. there were trips and vacancies to places and pictures of 5 were taken. there were long journey back to kampung where all 5 were packed tightly in a small car. there were cold water running from the waterfalls where all 5 enjoyed very much. there were a Luciano pavarotti version of O SOLO MIO sung by the all 5, which was all off keys and wrong pronounciation. there were a moral lessons or principal that all 5 alwiz hold on to.

growing up, 5 reduced to 4. in mathematical equation, u must subtract 1 from 5 to get a 4. the 1 is 1 portion of heartache, 1 portion of suffer, 1 portion of poverty, 1 portion of disappoinment, 1 portion of grief, 1 portion of lost, 1 portion of tears, 1 portion of sickness, 1 portion of health, 1 portion of changes. of course there is also 1 portion of love, 1 portion of caring, 1 portion of cruelty, 1 portion of gossips, 1 portion of despair, and 1 portion of departure. but 4 is still a huge number. a plural. 4 makes a crowd. a group. a sense of happiness. i am still contented with it.


but before the equation substract 1 again, changes happen. lots and lots. words forgotten, dreams pursued, status changed, chances approached, value upgraded, love forgotten. which all will lead to smaller and smaller value of number.

i had i dream that day. i dream that 4 became to 3. i was so shocked that i jumped awaked from the dream. it took me awhile to realize that it is just a dream. this reminds me that there were one period that i need minutes to clear my head after i woke up, to remember that there were no longer 5, like what i had in my dreams, there were only 4, no miracle.
so i begun to think. as long as there are 4, as long as the numbers doesn't drop, no matter how far they are, it doesn't matter. still i fear, the equation will subtracts and substract again until at last there is only 1 left.

i understand the law of changes, i understand everyone has his own path, i understand everyone has his own philosophy. but still, why 5 has to become 1?

PRINTING DAY
when i say day i really do mean the whole day. yes we need a WHOLＥDAY to print some a3 paper and a bunch of a4 papers. haha.. we went to the shop and take turns to realise that we got some setting wrongs in bit here and there. den take turns to adjust, take turns to wait for each other... that's how i spent my day for printing.. haih.. luckily the boss there very nice and gave us HUGE discount.. haha..

PRESENTATION BOARDS

RENDERINGS

not to mention something funny today.. when u go to buy a topup, u expect to get a pin number.. but today i went to get a 10 bucks reload, the guy pay me back 10 bucks ~ :p.. he also siao siao like me edi. haha.

只有兩個字形容我的心情 - 無奈

唉。。

沒日沒夜地做
還是弄不好

唉

人家在享受輕松
自己抓破頭 任何東西都做不出來

唉

又一次的面對孤單
還要熬多1個月
我沒有埋怨的意思
只是要自己堅持
堅持堅持堅持堅持堅持堅持堅持堅持
你就會看到彩虹！

xxxx
昨天家里添了一個新成員
我跟媽媽整天左盼右盼 的洗衣機
終于來到我家啦！！

如果你不懂， 告訴你，
我家的洗衣機壞了
而且壞了好多年
所以一直以來都是用手洗的 T.T
辛苦媽媽了

有了洗衣機 當然是馬上把衣服全部丟進去洗 啊
看著它 轟隆轟隆響
爽到要死

十分鐘后
家里電源斷掉了 T.T
那時候我在用電腦
功課全部沒了 要重做

那么babi 的洗衣機
要把整間屋子的電用完

唉

結果每次洗衣都不可以開電腦 開風扇

唉

之前說過會有design的工給我做
果然不出我所料
是姐姐新男友的屋子
她也應該會一起住

很矛盾很矛盾很矛盾

自己有父母不照顧 卻跑去別人家住
這種事我絕對絕對絕對不能原諒
就算你偶爾請他吃大餐
買很多很多東西給他
都不能原諒

就算你說鳥終有一天會離巢
你還是說服不了我

因為很多事情很多情緒你都看不到
承受的 只有我一個

很諷刺
我的第一個真正的設計 竟然是他們的“新家”

很多事情都變了
我阻止不了 也無法適應
可是我最需要的也是改變

好無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊無聊

I'M BOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBORED BOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBORED BOREDBOREDBOREDBORED

"I hate ISOMETRIC !!"



" who ask u to draw so many curves!!"



"i like curves wat... >.<"



" deal with it la!! focus on ur drawings!!"



" TT.TT tonight cannot sleep again. : ( "

i was just wandering around other ppl's blog.. it seems to be how we are all connected now.. despite that i nvr meet some of them even after graduate.. XD.. funny is, one common thing that i found on all blogs is how we all complain about how alone or how tiring we all facing life. now it is one the phase of being an adult. we all become more and more stress and more and more lonely in our heart. growing up doesn't sounds so fun after all. but we do get to do things we love to do. at least there's one good thing about it. and oh ya, i have excuse to stay up until very very late just becoz i have to finish my assignments, which in fact i was killing time surfing online. :p

this term for me is already a nightmare. the previous term i still manage to sleep before 12 on normal days. and i can be addicted to drama series and movies and doraemon cartoons when i'm doing work. but now i've miss movies since term start..T.T.. except a lame one on valentine's day, which i watch with my bro. we were so bored with it when i asked "valentine no one date u ah?" XD. he was eating and he dropped his spoon on the spot and replied "yealo, valentine no date somemore have to watch lame movie with sister.T.T " XD and now i can't even rmb wat was the movie we watched together. haha..

if someone could loan me some time, i want to watch THE CURIOUS CASE OF BENJAMIN BUTTON. from the preview it seems super interesting. only that i don't like Brad Pitt playing benjamin. XD. and there are few more movies that i wanna catch, just forgot which one.. haha.. gosh 10 yrs from now my target will be to earn enough money so that i can own a private cinema at home. and to have a super duper huge collection of movies in all genre all language all nations. eh, but before that i want a more super duper huge collection of books.. XD. i'm ambitious right.. haha..

gotta stop blogging and back to work now. Ciaoz.

was alone at home on valentine, watching sucks movie online.. feel a little bit depressed after the presentation.. work is not good at all and it didn't pleased the lecturer. suddenly feel no confidence at all. sigh..

luckily i still have 2 fat pig and 14 baby pigs accompany me for valentine's.. hehe..

cute le~~ hehehee

finally get to finish my work.. after 2 days of non-stop working. >.<
recently got more design job offer, make me feel so excited about it. one even is to handle the whole condo interior project. i am going to work so hard and so hard and so hard until i am so exhausted dat i can sleep for whole month and don't wake up. hahaha.. anyway, the reward is HUGE. not talking bout the pay, but the SATISFACTION. contented.. : )

好長的一段路哦，一個人走下去實在有點孤單
就連應該是最親的人都不明白
你給的壓力排山倒海般來
我只能像耍太極般 推開

這么久以來 我都覺得我一直在孤軍作戰
沒有人能明白我在做什么
沒有人真正理解
雖然我很感激你們的默默支持
可是 真正的 只有我一個

好漫長的一夜 時間卻仍然不夠用
可我不會放棄
不眠不休也要完成

3d max render - signage design

只有那么一角可以看
調不回那個角度了
而且不懂怎樣弄美美

給我半年吧
我會弄出超水準的東西

：）

noidon'tlikeyoutalkingaboutitoverandoverandoverandoverandoveragain
wheniamjusttryingtodomywork.FOCUSLY.noidon'tlikethatyetidon'twant
tosayanythingcozinoeeverythingudoisjusttryingtocareformebut
somehowpleasedon'tbesooverpoweringidofeelstressedfromyouand
honestlyi'vebeenthinkingaboutourrelationshipandinotsurewhether
icanstillfindthepatiencetokeepwhateverwehavenow
DONTPUSHMETOOHARDORYOUWILLLOSEMEFOREVER!

JUST RANTING

suddenly thought of listing out my favourite movies since i've been spending most of my free time on movies for the past few years. XD some i strongly recommended for all of you also. : )

Top 10 Favourite Magical/Mystery movies
1. HARRY POTTER SERIES


2. THE LORD OF THE RING

3. THE SPIDERWICK CHRONICLES

4. STARDUST

5. CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY


6. SWEENEY TODD : THE DEMON BARBER OF FLEET STREET


7. PAN'S LABYRINTH


8. PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN

9. LEMONY SNICKET'S A SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS





10. EDWARD SCISSORHANDS

There's one more week left for my presentation.
and i have not yet confirm my design. ideas are all dead now. nothing interesting coming out from my mind. sitting there for hours doing nothing fruitful. and i am distracted..

distracted by this~

another game popular in our class for this week. and i'm possessed with it. spent whole night and most of the time in class struggling with it.. hahaha.. and yes, i succeeded making it perfect last night. wahahaha.. :p

have to get my head back to assignments, which i alwiz remind myself to do so, and turn out watching another disney cartoon series.. :p by the way, the cartoons are really nice!! haha

these are the few signages i designed for the old folks home in setapak. though it's not really interesting, but it is really fun doing it in illustrator. : )

:)