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i've gone a bit clueless of what i am doing now.. it seems that i'm rushing for my finals but in the inside i'm not that care for it anymore. passion gone. without warning, just "poooff!!" and there's nothing left. so i am now a working robot and do slow and lousy 3d works. my mind wandering to everywhere. gotta find a way to install fire into this rusted body. before it was too late. 1 week before presentation. everything not done. sigh..

really really clueless now. i wonder where my time goes. din get to finish work. din get any quality time with family. din get to hang out with frens. din get to have fun. din get to think about my design future. din get to update myself about everything. i am a dead working robot. hate robots. and this robot didn't improve the work she's beeen working on for so long.

and umm.. i wonder everyone treat everyone in a same way. sometimes you seem to be so cheerful and supportive and sunshine with one person. yet another moment when u be with another one u r so monotone and discouraging and boring. i dunno how it's really like. i just judge on what i know. mayb not everyone's judgement is different. someone will eventually get bored with someone. there's a lot of time that i want this to stop but something just hold me back. i alwiz have excuses. and it's alwiz until this phase of time(end terms) that i feel most impatient and i want everything to end. it is mostly the awkward moments that come after everything ends that i fear. i am such a coward.

anyway, here's something i wanted to blog long time ago. just dint have the mood to do it. erm.. for those who long time didnt meet my sis or nvr meet her at all, i have a photo to show.

a poster of cigaratte advertisement in the 30s. according to what my mom says. suprisingly the model resembles my sister very much. it was produced way before my mom was born if not mistaken. my sis and her fren discovered it when they having lunch at station 1 in klang. it was hung outside the toilets. when i search about the poster online, i found another one exactly the same in dunno taiwan or china. it says it was hung outside some studio's toilet too.. XD guess this girl is the toilet guardian or something else.. XD XD.. and i swear this is not a work of my photo editing trick. it is 100% genuine. if dont believe go check out in station 1. XDXD. i'm not sure whether the girl is the painter's imagination or it is a real person. either way it is so amazing that 2 person in this world can look so alike even they are not connected. den my sis crap that someone say there are 7 person in this world that look exactly the same. great. now she'd found 1, next is to discover the other 5. :D